When I was in fourth year college around October, our
department head decided to have an examination to determine if we should
continue our major or not; for the last semester. It was against our will to
think that it will be our last and studying our major for almost four years
should be reason enough for us to graduate as Accountancy student; but they
still had the exam. Sadly, I failed.
At that time, I rebelled to God because I prayed for it
fervently and asked Him to help me with the exam but He did not (I thought). I
got drunk almost every night and did not go home until morning. My mom and dad
worried about me but I did not mind because all I thought about was that I am
hurting badly and it’s all because of God.
But one day, a friend of mine asked me to come with her to
her uncle’s home and join a devotional. I hesitated but she persisted that I
needed it. So, I did. And from that day forward, I was quickened back to God
and realised that I made a great mistake of blaming Him for whatever is happening
in my life. I was once dead but am now alive with Him.
It was a life-changing experience for me that altered my
whole-being. I started to go back to Church and worship Him. If trouble and
problem comes, I earnestly pray to Him and when it does not happen according to
what I want, it is okay because I know that His solutions are better than mine.
I began to realise His presence in my life and I am grateful and thankful that
even if I was separated from Him, I was born again through his mercy and
unfailing love.
Until today, I will never forget that by receiving Jesus as
my saviour and allowing him to touch my heart and empowering Him to avoid doing
false acts against His will; I am renewed through Christ and the Holy Spirit.
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